what flavor pocky are you?
[c] sugardew

i'm the same pocky as chancy! ahahaha!

oooh boy.. so i'm working working working hard now.  my calculus teacher thinks i should withdraw from the course.  oy... how did i ever get myself into this mess!  but see.. thats why i'm working hard!  I always get lazy during third quarter.. even in high school.. kinda weird how that works huh? 

i've been overrun with midterms.  they just keep coming and my calc one is coming up on next week   i really need to ace this one and the final to make it out of the class.

so i have a hold on my registration!  my counselour wont take it off cuz i'm taking too many math class?  i'm in the wrong college basically if i want to be math oriented.  but i dont know what i want! and i dont want to change colleges now without declaring only to have to change colleges AGAIN when i do declare.  pooo.. i'm so confused about my future. 

FUCK.

well the negotiations have resumed again, i think.  apparently there was some misunderstanding between some one calling someone else a bitch and me letting it slide.  well i'm not denying the incident i'm just saying that if it did happen i must have not been there because i wouldn't fucking let that kind of thing slide.  shit.. she should know me better than that.  i'm hoping to talk about it more.. but i dont know if that feeling is reciprocated.  i asked but my question was avoided.  should i take that i as a good thing or just a signal that she hasnt made up her mind yet.

wish me luck everyone

drifting away.. slowly .. slowly drifting away.  when we leave, we always tell each other and ourselves that it wont happen.. but it happens.  we drift away from each other.  and as much as you don't want that to happen how are u supposed to stop it.  one day.. you are the closest friends and the next day.. the next phone call you have is filled with awkwardness and .. not unease.. but not the ease and the freedom to talk randomly like you used to.  how do we stop this?  how do we stop these friends from drifting away?  then again.. how can you really tell how true a friendship is.  i guess that is what college is for.  this is the time when people show their true colors.. well.. maybe that sounds a bit harsh... but this is the time when you get to know who your true friends are. 

so you might wonder.. where did all this come from?  reading iva's entry.  i am not lonely.. but the drifting apart of old friends is always painful when you take the time to think about it and you realize that you are drifting.  and that maybe they don't care as much.. not enough to remember you. 

but then again.. maybe i'm being paranoid like always.  maybe even though we are drifting we still care and it's just that we get caught up in our own little worlds and are too busy to remember each other.. to remember the birthdays and the holidays.. and any other days.